A Decade Goes Very Quickly

It was 10 years ago today that my mom passed away. It feels like yesterday -- actually it feels like today. This is one of my favorite pictures of my mom. She's modeling a hat I crocheted (yes you are reading correctly I crocheted it) and sunglasses she got for Christmas.

I'm not sure if I told this story before but I'm going to tell it again so pay attention, it's one of my favorite mom stories. This was about a year or so before she died. She had COPD and I did a lot of things for her, including taking her to the doctor. Well one day we are at the doctor's office and it is really busy. I had her take a seat and I went up and told them she was here. When I got over to where she was sitting I could see she was in a down mood -- when you have a chronic illness and depend so much on others that is a fairly commen emotion. She turned to me and said, rather loudly, "I've become such a burden to you and your brother." At this point I'm wondering how she was a burden to my brother who maybe called her once a week, but I digress. Now where was I? "I've become such a burden to you and your brother whe we get home you should just leave me in the trash dumpster." At this point everyone in the room was looking at us waiting for me to comfort and reassure her that indeed she was not a burden. Well, homey don't play that game. I turned to her, took her hand, and said "Don't be silly mom; I'll drive you directly to the landfill."

That made her laugh and quite often when she would get on my nerves I'd say "Should we head out to the landfill?"

I miss her like crazy. My heart aches to have one more day with her. I can't believe it's been 10 years. Love you mom.